Laying low

I just want to thank everyone for the encouraging comments, it really makes me feel better.

I stayed home from work today just because I could not bear to sit at my desk all day and stress about this. So much better to stress from the couch while I watch movies, I say. I did call and leave a msg with Dr b's office this morning but I haven't heard back yet.  Things are about the same down there - brownish spotting that comes and goes it seems.  I am trying to drink lots of water and concentrate on my free Starz subscription for now.

Thanks,
Amanda

Warning - this is gross

I don't know why I feel the need to continually apologize for the graphic nature of this blog, you guys should know by now what you are in for.  Anyway, I'm sorry, I really am, but it has to be documented.  And for some reason the more excruciating detail, the better I feel.  So if you have the stomach, read on...

Starting on Saturday I noticed a teeny tiny bit of spotting.  Very light colored, not red or even pink at all, but definitely there.  A little more after Bloomsday but still not enough to really make me worry and then next to nothing… until today.  :(  About 4:00 I went to the bathroom and *GASP* (that's the sound I made to myself), a LOT more, same color but maybe a shade darker.  So I go into panic mode and speed dial my Dr. H (they are MUCH quicker at calling back than Dr. B).  Mary Lou calls back and says not to worry, it's "old" and maybe I just broke a little blood vessel or something and this is the aftermath (maybe Bloomsday was overkill?).  On a side note I am suddenly really dizzy again as I'm writing this.  She said no sex and no strenuous activity (her example was "heavy" grocery shopping, lol) until it goes away, and drink more water for crying out loud.  That's it.  No rushing to give blood, no ultrasound, nothing.  She said obviously call if anything changes but it doesn't sound worrisome.  I am SO not convinced, this has never, ever ended well for me.  How am I supposed to stay positive when I just get the same old crap every time?  Not to mention this is just going to make the next two weeks seem like 10 years.

I am debating whether I will call Dr. B in the morning.

Twiddle twiddle

Here we go again with the waiting. I am still waiting on progesterone results from last Wednesday but I am not really all that concerned about that. And there's nothing else to be done except wait for my ultrasound on the 21st. Nothing is going to make that come faster except for bleeding and we DON'T want that. So again God is teaching me a lesson in patience. The time is CRAWLING by every day at work. I have too much free time to analyze all my symptoms...

I felt sick a lot today. I got a decaf latte this morning and that made me sick. My lunch made me sick and a little dizzy. And then I felt sick this afternoon just drinking water. Bleh. Bigelow Decaf Apple Cinnamon tea sucks by the way. Marci gave me some sweet and spicy tea from Good Earth to try so I will have to remember to bring that tomorrow since I ran out of my Vanilla Chai. Also my right boob is sore and my left one isn't. Just in case you were wondering.

Yeahhhhh!!!!

Dr.'s office just called and my HCG was one thousand, five hundred…. And then fireworks started going off in my head and I didn't hear the last two digits. But yay, yay, yay, that is more than double! I can breathe now.

Caffeine FREE

Friday was my last little bit of coffee.  I definitely had a headache yesterday afternoon but it doesn't seem to have followed me to today at all, yay! 

I did not sleep very well at all last night, which is unusual.  Maybe just because I was drinking so much water yesterday after Bloomsday (7.46 mile fun "run" in Spokane).  Natalie and I finished in 2 hours, 17 minutes which was a pretty solid 18:30 mile.  Not the greatest but actually faster than last year.  I got a teeny bit dizzy just before the race started but otherwise I felt awesome.  My hips and knees are a little sore today but not so much that it bothers me or I feel like I need to take anything for it.

I have been waiting (impatiently) all day for Friday's lab results.  Nothing yet.  I called the office and they said if they haven't heard by now they probably aren't ready yet and I should call back tomorrow.  I told them that on Friday they had to call the lab to get them and they were in fact ready but just hadn't been sent.  I told the nurse I was really anxious so would she please try calling.  She didn't sound happy about that but she said she would.  Geez!  Don't these people realize what these HCG numbers mean to me?  So now I'm really on the edge of my seat.

LHS T shirt blanket

Beautiful day so far

I went to bed last night at 10pm and did not wake up until about 7:45am. What a wonderful feeling. This was even more amazing because I am on call this weekend and I don't remember the last time I did not get an early (and I'm talking EARLY, like 3-4am) morning call from the helpdesk about some random issue. I thank God for that, I needed a good 10 hour stretch of z's. I got up to take my thyroid medicine and then I did get a couple of no brainer calls from work. Eric and I watched Survivor and then I played about a hundred games of Bejeweled trying to beat Natalie's high score (drat, failure!). When I finally got up from the couch I got a serious dizzy spell, like I had to stop and hold on to the couch for a minute before I could keep walking. That was pretty weird. I looked it up and apparently it is fairly normal, especially in the first trimester. But it's something new for me. I still feel a little woozy and sick to my stomach too, but not like I'm going to fall out of my chair. Whew, might have to really take it easy today, since tomorrow I am scheduled to walk 7.46 miles in Bloomsday. We'll see how I do in the shower. I'd really hate to bail on Bloomsday, I need to keep collecting shirts so I can make a blanket in about 12 years ;) You guys should see this AWESOME blanket I made with all my old LHS shirts. Mandy, you especially would appreciate it... I might have to post a picture.