Here we go again

Okay so last month I give myself a C for effort in conception. So it's not too disappointing or surprising that my friend came a'visiting as usual. 30 days this time, not bad, not bad at all. I feel like 29 & 30 are like good "scores" on a test or something. It's so weird! Anyway. I've gained back a couple of pounds since going to Vegas, then coming back and only working out a couple of times before getting sick. I've been sickly now with a cold for almost two weeks so been trying to take it easy. I think I am about back to normal now just in time to start school up again tonight. ONE more class after this! Bloomsday is coming up fast and Natalie and I are also doing Race for the Cure this year so we are going to start "training" tomorrow after work. I am hoping the weather starts getting nicer so I can try running outside, since I read something in an article in my Self magazine about "treadmill ass" -- now doesn't that sound nice? That's what's new in my world :)

Apparently I'm "Infertile"

*Sigh* I was afraid this might happen. I got an e-mail alert today from my insurance company saying they had processed a claim. I went to check it out online and lo and behold, the charges for my last ultrasound were not covered. So of course I called them up and said "what's the deal?" They said the ultrasound was done for infertility reasons, and anything of that nature is excluded from my plan. *blink* Great! Um, HELLO?!? Who comes up with this stuff? I mean, I get it, multiple miscarriages is a form of infertility in the medical world, but I...AM...NOT...INFERTILE! I have been pregnant THREE times in a year. How much more fertile do I have to be? ARGH!

What happens in Vegas....

STAYS in Vegas! Literally! Sadly, I took like 8 pictures the whole time we were down there, and about 5 of them were from my camera phone. Eric and I did basically zip zero nothing touristy or picture-worthy (besides attending Li'l Bow Wow's 22nd birthday party at Studio 54, hee hee). We missed the Bellagio fountains, we missed the Mirage volcano, we missed the rides at the Stratosphere and the New York New York. About the only thing we did see was the lions at the MGM Grand, but it was hard to miss them since we had to walk right by there to get from our room to the Strip. We pretty much ate, drank, and gambled, aside from a couple of recovery hours lounging by the pool. But it...was...AWESOME!!! The perfect vacation that we'll probably never be able to have once we have kids. Speaking of which, it is day 16 and we have been totally slacking on the baby making! Since my cycle was 29 days last month I really better not take tonight off. Oh TMI!! Sorry!

P.S. - I got 50/50 on my presentation :)

Nope

Well the test I took this morning was clearly negative, so I am not so worried about the fake out situation. It should have definitely been positive by now, especially if it was already making me sick. I was having a little heartburn today and I still feel slightly sick to my stomach -- but at this point my guess is that I feel that way because I have a presentation to give in my Leadership class tonight :) Yesterday's sickness, well, I'm chalking that up to the leftover pizza I had for dinner the night before. Also work is a little crazy so I may be feeling a little anxious about that. So hooray, I am going to have the BEST time in Vegas this weekend!

9 min 53 sec

Yay, I ran my mile in less than 10 minutes on Saturday. I am so proud of myself! I didn't lose the 10 pounds I wanted to by the end of February, but I did lose 6 and I'm still fitting into pants I haven't worn in a long time. The 10 minute mile is clearly another step in the right direction. Next stop: 9 minutes!!! Or maybe 2 miles in 20 minutes, that would be a trick for sure. Running the mile my heart rate did get up to 170 beats per minute which is almost 90% of my max. So what I'd like to do is keep running at around that rate until I can maybe get my HR to stay down around 165 or so the whole time. I've started swimming too, and my goal there is to swim more than 2 laps without having to take a break, gasping for breath :)

So aside from that, I have been feeling a little weird about things. After my fake out period last time I just can't get comfortable. I have been feeling a little nauseated today for no apparent reason and even stranger is that my period seems to be lingering still, for the 6th day now. This is completely unusual since the last hundred or so have been 2-3 days max. So I am going out of my mind wondering what is going on and I am going to have to take a pregnancy test now just to be sure… especially since we are going to VEGAS on Friday! So stay tuned!

Not Pregnancy Related

So getting dressed this morning I tried on some pants that I haven't worn in a long time and VOILA! They fit! I leapt for joy and did a little "the scale lies" dance and have been in a happy place all day today. This is why I am so infuriated right now that the stupid fool who made my sandwich for lunch put MAYO on it when I specificially asked for it to be without MAYO. And this is a baguette, people, so it is just not so easily scraped off. The mayo is literally ENTRENCHED. I would take it back but the place is down the street and I was already back at my desk before I realized this grave mistake. I don't even LIKE mayo so the calories are not the only tragedy here. Not to mention they also gave me italian dressing for my salad, which just does not go well with the candied walnuts and feta. Yuck!

Two day recap

So I started writing this post yesterday … (I don't usually write my posts directly onto the blog site…. I just don't trust it…. Anyway)

Ants in my pants - Day 29

It's getting to be that time where I reeeeally want to take a pregnancy test. History has shown me that it is too early, but I have this uncontrollable impulse to throw away $5 (ish) anyway. Somebody stop me! I am having this internal struggle - do I… wait as long as possible before finding out because as soon as I know then I will be freaking out and running to the bathroom every five minutes to make sure there's nothing "wrong"?? Or do I find out as soon as possible so I can start running to the doctor's office every two days to make sure everything is going as it should? I also always have a small worry that I'm just not going to be pregnant this month at all. Not that I'm concerned about that so much but it does mean another month of waiting :( I. HATE. WAITING.

Well now it is today and turns out the wait is over before it started. I'm back at day 1 now, which is cool. 29 days! It always makes me happy the closer I am to 28 days, it seems like it's more normal or healthier or something. Plus I made it through a whole cycle without taking one single test, yay! That is a first in a very, very long time. I'm a little disappointed though… as I mentioned before, now I have another month of waiting, another month during which I wonder how many more of my friends are going to turn up pregnant (you know who you are!!) or give birth (you know who you are too!!) before me. Not that it's a contest but anyone who has been trying (and failing) to have a baby for awhile knows how it feels when it seems like everyone around you has kids or is about to. I admit it, I'm jealous. But I'm a pretty shade of green, I promise. It goes with my red hair nicely.

Someone at work leaves issues of "Parents" magazine in the break room. During the 2 minutes my lunch is heating up I have been actually taking a peek. There are usually tons of copies at my OB office too but I always have avoided looking at them because it was too hard since, you know, I'M NOT A PARENT YET!!! It's still kind of frustrating but interesting and exciting too. I can't wait to have little "challenges" with the kids and get creative finding ways to address them. It's fun to read about what other people have tried. I think Eric and I will have a great time being parents. Can't wait!