So I started writing this post yesterday … (I don't usually write my posts directly onto the blog site…. I just don't trust it…. Anyway)
Ants in my pants - Day 29
It's getting to be that time where I reeeeally want to take a pregnancy test. History has shown me that it is too early, but I have this uncontrollable impulse to throw away $5 (ish) anyway. Somebody stop me! I am having this internal struggle - do I… wait as long as possible before finding out because as soon as I know then I will be freaking out and running to the bathroom every five minutes to make sure there's nothing "wrong"?? Or do I find out as soon as possible so I can start running to the doctor's office every two days to make sure everything is going as it should? I also always have a small worry that I'm just not going to be pregnant this month at all. Not that I'm concerned about that so much but it does mean another month of waiting :( I. HATE. WAITING.
Well now it is today and turns out the wait is over before it started. I'm back at day 1 now, which is cool. 29 days! It always makes me happy the closer I am to 28 days, it seems like it's more normal or healthier or something. Plus I made it through a whole cycle without taking one single test, yay! That is a first in a very, very long time. I'm a little disappointed though… as I mentioned before, now I have another month of waiting, another month during which I wonder how many more of my friends are going to turn up pregnant (you know who you are!!) or give birth (you know who you are too!!) before me. Not that it's a contest but anyone who has been trying (and failing) to have a baby for awhile knows how it feels when it seems like everyone around you has kids or is about to. I admit it, I'm jealous. But I'm a pretty shade of green, I promise. It goes with my red hair nicely.
Someone at work leaves issues of "Parents" magazine in the break room. During the 2 minutes my lunch is heating up I have been actually taking a peek. There are usually tons of copies at my OB office too but I always have avoided looking at them because it was too hard since, you know, I'M NOT A PARENT YET!!! It's still kind of frustrating but interesting and exciting too. I can't wait to have little "challenges" with the kids and get creative finding ways to address them. It's fun to read about what other people have tried. I think Eric and I will have a great time being parents. Can't wait!
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I can't wait for you two to be parents, either. I so wish we lived closer. I say that all the time, but I don't care if my repetition is annoying because it's true. I'm excited that it was only 29 days for you this time! That just means that even though you have to wait again, at least it's a shorter period of time than it has been in previous months (or, longer-than-months).
I did the Cardio Dance Fusion (or whatever it's called) DVD this morning. Pretty fun! I wish my abs looked like that Allison girl's abs. I'm going to try the 500 Calorie Workout tomorrow. I'll keep you posted on whether or not I pass out. :)
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