Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Freaking out

I am super nervous. I started spotting again last night. Still just a little, and it's brown, but still really frustrating. Although, the ultrasound tech yesterday pointed out there were some little pockets of fluid in my uterus that were probably blood, so I guess I'm not surprised that it would eventually come out. I was kind of expecting it actually. I also just realized that today it's been exactly 33 days from when I *thought* I got my period in August, which was 33 days after my *real* last period in July. So I guess that is not all that unusual either to have spotting around the time of your period. Can I say period a few more times? I think that is enough. Of course this morning I was also freaking out because it seemed like my boobs weren't sore anymore, but now they seem to be a little. Less than yesterday but still a little. This is way too stressful, I can't handle it.

Psalm 46:10 - Be still and know that I am God.

3 comments:

Shauna said...

so I was exactly 33 days when I had spotting and thought my period had arrived. Then it was gone the next day and the day after that I spotted again. I have since narrowed it down to implantation spotting (which must have meant I conceived the week before (I think that's when implantation spotting happens?) - yes, very late in the cycle).

Spotting is fairly normal in pregnancy, don't freak out and get all stressed just yet. My boobs were sore and then they weren't...then they were...so that's normal too. Some days are better than others.

Maybe I'm being too optimistic here, but so far it sounds like you are moving right along and maybe you are stressing over the dates too much. Also, when your doc says 6 weeks is he talking about baby time or the time since conception? Because if the baby is 6 weeks, then the conception date was probably 2 weeks earlier or some nonsense (I don't know, I'm getting all confused now...maybe you should ignore my comment).

Hope I'm not adding to your stress by spitting out all the random thoughts I have. Just know that you have people praying for you and hoping for the best. ;)

Amanda said...

I need all the prayers I can get! I know I am obsessing about this, but I can't help it. After losing 2 (both starting with spotting) you just start to get pretty paranoid I guess.

Not to mention distracted! I just opened up a little creamer packet and started to pour it onto my candle at my desk instead of into my tea.

McMahan family said...

That is one of my favorite Scriptures. I actually really needed it two weeks back and Sara texted it to me. It is calming. I like that you're posting verses on here too. I find it fitting to look at the title of this post ("Freaking out") and then the verse you selected and it's like God is answering you. As in, "Don't freak out. Just be still and know I am God."

I also had sore boobs on and off. Some days I actually felt like I was mushing them around, TRYING to make them hurt. Like, "Do they hurt now? Now? What about if I do this? Was this what it was like yesterday?" I also had on and off mild cramping and twinges. Somedays, I didn't ever even feel pregnant.

I understand worrying about the symptoms coming/going and about the spotting. Though I only spotted once when I was pregnant with Emma, I know a handful of people who BLED (TMI?) even heavily sometimes throughout their pregnancies. Even so, I will also worry once again and analyze everything when (God-willing) I get pregnant again. You should see my pregnancy journal. I wrote EVERYTHING down because I thought for sure every little symptom (and then absence of that symptom) meant bad news again.

LOL at your creamer/candle situation.