Saturday, September 13, 2008

Waiting waiting waiting

Today I am at my mom's house and we discussed the whole situation this morning. I had been tossing around the idea of seeing another doctor and wasn't sure what to do. My mom decided we should call the labor and delivery department at the hospital and see what doctors they recommended. Long story short, the nurse in charge said (without knowing who my doctor was) that my doctor was excellent, and the only other one she recommended was another MD in the same office. So I guess I am in good hands at least expertise-wise. I still might get a second opinion depending on how this all turns out. In my over analytical brain I can think of lots of reasons why my doctor didn't jump to action. Maybe he is just more the type to answer questions asked of him rather than volunteering a lot of information. Maybe he feels like it is important to deal with this situation before looking ahead to next time. He has always seemed really concerned about my emotional well being. I still wish they would have freaking put stat on the order, how hard would that have been? Emotionally wouldn't I have been better off knowing yesterday if my hcg wasn't continuing to double? Or would that have just ruined my fun weekend that I had planned? Hmm, it's a toss up. I still have not lost all hope. My spotting has almost completely stopped. I have an almost constant dull achy crampy feeling which makes me a little nervous but to further complicate the situation, I have read specifically that the cramps from a miscarriage feel exactly like the pains from a normal growing uterus. So I'm just going to relax and have fun this weekend, it's not over until... well even that I don't really know.

1 comment:

McMahan family said...

You're at your mom's house? What?

I'm glad your doctor is well-known and sounds like he's trusted. It doesn't sound like he's steered you incorrectly in the past, he just might have a bedside manner that maybe you wish were a little different. Or maybe all that is frustrating is just the situation in general and it's easier to pin it on someone who we think could do a little more to make things easier. He's probably following normal protocol ... it's just not fun protocol to experience.

Oh, and when I was first pregnant with Emma, I also totally had crampy feelings. Little twinges, too. I wrote all that down very specifically in my journal b/c I was worried about it, too. They lasted a few weeks, even! With my miscarriage, I didn't get cramps until it really full-on started. Just to share experiences.

Again, let me know if me commenting every post is going to get annoying, please. I'll refrain if so.