Not Pregnancy Related

So getting dressed this morning I tried on some pants that I haven't worn in a long time and VOILA! They fit! I leapt for joy and did a little "the scale lies" dance and have been in a happy place all day today. This is why I am so infuriated right now that the stupid fool who made my sandwich for lunch put MAYO on it when I specificially asked for it to be without MAYO. And this is a baguette, people, so it is just not so easily scraped off. The mayo is literally ENTRENCHED. I would take it back but the place is down the street and I was already back at my desk before I realized this grave mistake. I don't even LIKE mayo so the calories are not the only tragedy here. Not to mention they also gave me italian dressing for my salad, which just does not go well with the candied walnuts and feta. Yuck!

Two day recap

So I started writing this post yesterday … (I don't usually write my posts directly onto the blog site…. I just don't trust it…. Anyway)

Ants in my pants - Day 29

It's getting to be that time where I reeeeally want to take a pregnancy test. History has shown me that it is too early, but I have this uncontrollable impulse to throw away $5 (ish) anyway. Somebody stop me! I am having this internal struggle - do I… wait as long as possible before finding out because as soon as I know then I will be freaking out and running to the bathroom every five minutes to make sure there's nothing "wrong"?? Or do I find out as soon as possible so I can start running to the doctor's office every two days to make sure everything is going as it should? I also always have a small worry that I'm just not going to be pregnant this month at all. Not that I'm concerned about that so much but it does mean another month of waiting :( I. HATE. WAITING.

Well now it is today and turns out the wait is over before it started. I'm back at day 1 now, which is cool. 29 days! It always makes me happy the closer I am to 28 days, it seems like it's more normal or healthier or something. Plus I made it through a whole cycle without taking one single test, yay! That is a first in a very, very long time. I'm a little disappointed though… as I mentioned before, now I have another month of waiting, another month during which I wonder how many more of my friends are going to turn up pregnant (you know who you are!!) or give birth (you know who you are too!!) before me. Not that it's a contest but anyone who has been trying (and failing) to have a baby for awhile knows how it feels when it seems like everyone around you has kids or is about to. I admit it, I'm jealous. But I'm a pretty shade of green, I promise. It goes with my red hair nicely.

Someone at work leaves issues of "Parents" magazine in the break room. During the 2 minutes my lunch is heating up I have been actually taking a peek. There are usually tons of copies at my OB office too but I always have avoided looking at them because it was too hard since, you know, I'M NOT A PARENT YET!!! It's still kind of frustrating but interesting and exciting too. I can't wait to have little "challenges" with the kids and get creative finding ways to address them. It's fun to read about what other people have tried. I think Eric and I will have a great time being parents. Can't wait!

Looney Bin - Day 26

Either I am pregnant or I have REALLY bad PMS. I am on a roll today, just ripping into people for no reason. Yesterday was horrible too. I am addicted to exercise for stress relief. After a really tough day I absolutely have to go for a run now to get it out of me. I've downloaded all of this workout music to my phone and I rock out on the treadmill. I am SO close to my 10 minute mile. Yesterday I ran a full 3/4 of a mile at 6.1mph without stopping for a break. Yahoo!

Lame Bill$

I have had this bill from PAML laying around for awhile, waiting to be paid. Normally I am really good about paying my bills right away, but this one... THIS ONE showed my insurance company only paid about 50% of the $1300 worth of tests my Dr. ordered back in November. I finally got around to calling them a few weeks ago to find out what the deal was, and they said some of the tests weren't paid for because my plan didn't cover genetic testing. Notice that I used the past tense "didn't" because of course THIS YEAR IT DOES. So much for rushing to get all my testing out of the way before the end of 2008 since we had already met our deductible. I had to go through my bill line by line, comparing it to my EOB to figure out what tests weren't covered, because I didn't think there had been any "genetic" tests. It ended up being the test for the FACTOR V LEIDEN mutation of the blood (some blood clotting thing), which I was negative for anyway. I'm curious though because I never have gotten a bill for the chromosome testing they did after my d&c, which I was thinking might also fall under "genetic" testing, but who knows. It's hard to imagine they just forgot to bill me. I suppose it will show up sometime in the summer right when I've managed to put all that behind me :)

I'm ecstatic for the weeks to come. Day 19 is coming to a close, so another 14 days or so and I'll be peeing on little sticks again. Yay!

My uterus is beautiful

Seriously, that is what the ultrasound technician said to me today. She literally used the word "beautiful." I went in for my sonohystogram, and they did an ultrasound first. It looked so good they CANCELLED the sonohystogram. Eric said he wasn't surprised because everything about me is beautiful. Isn't that the sweetest thing you've ever heard in your life? Anyway, after the u/s Dr. H came in and said he really didn't see any point in going ahead with the sonohystogram, it would just be painful and annoying and pointless since there was nothing to look at anyway. He was really apologetic and said he knows it seems like we should be doing something, but there isn't anything wrong that they can find. He said it won't hurt to try a daily baby aspirin, and go on progesterone again when I find out I am pregnant. But other than that we just have to hope for the best. So I guess that's that.